Last day at home for a while. Ian is taking me to Salina tomorrow to meet mom and I'll be in Mulvane until the surgery. The doctor had previously said to expect a week in the hospital, and since Ian has to work, I'll probably stay with mom for a week after I get out just to make sure there are no surprises. It's hard being apart, but we had a lot of practice during the 3 years that I lived in Oberlin. I just keep praying that everything goes well and that my surgeons are really as good as people say they are. I've had way to much time to overthink all of this and, late at night especially, my brain likes to keep me awake telling me stories from all the articles I have ever read and every medical drama I have ever watched.
My friends keep sending me sweet videos of puppies and kittens which really helps to keep the endorphins flowing. I just wish I weren't missing most of pool season. I was really looking forward to floating down the lazy river in an inner-tube. Whatever happens, I can do this (even if there might be days I don't want to). At some point, I will be released into the wild and I can start over again at the gym (third times the charm right). I'm off to finish what I started and pack the car so we will be ready to leave in the morning.
Creating my own sunshine 🌞